Love? or Betrayal?

I never believed in love till I met Feyijimi. My parents divorced since I was little and I grew up in two houses. I had seen how little love they had for each other, always fighting and they couldn’t even stand being in each other’s presence for long. Since then I truly believed that love didn’t exist or even if it exists it never lasts long.

 After graduation from the University of Lagos I started my own catering company that I had always dreamed of starting and it boomed so quickly always keeping me busy. I was happy and contented in my own little world with my dogs Zeus and Cerberus keeping me company …..well that was until I met Jimi.

Right from the time we met it was quite obvious that we were perfect for each other. I was walking my dogs in my estate just taking an evening stroll when Zeus escaped from his leash. I chased him but I couldn’t catch him because I was also dragging Cerberus along. I chased him around the corner to find him nuzzling against a female dog with two guys standing there. I called out “Zeus! Come here right now” The guys looked up at me. My eyes found their way to Jimi’s and I felt an instant connection. The guys introduced themselves to me…..Tunde was the owner of the dog Precious who my Zeus had taken a fancy to and Jimi was his best friend.

The three of us formed a tight friendship since that day. Tunde and I lived in the same estate so we were always at each others houses with our dogs and Jimi frequently joined us .

One fateful day Jimi came to my house and in the midst of watching Garfield the movie he admitted his feelings for me. I was so happy ……we went out on several dates to the movies, on lunch dates. It was magical every time we touched, every time we kissed I felt tingling sparks and I was extra happy whenever I was with him. I was quite convinced that I was falling deeply, madly and head over heels in love with him

About three months after we started dating I invited Jimi over to my apartment for a home cooked meal by yours truly…. You know just to show off my cooking skills after all I am a caterer and also a little bit to show that I am wife material. After a delicious dinner which he wholeheartedly praised and consumed a great portion of it it we sat down in the parlour to watch a movie and eat some ice-cream. About an hour into the movie I looked over at Jimi and I noticed some ice –cream at the corner at his mouth. So I turned and wiped it off as I was about retreating he held my hand drawing me close to him. Our eyes met and sparks flew…. We both drew in and our lips meshed together. This kiss wasn’t like our usual gentle kisses. It was filled with passion, hunger and desire…. Our bodies molded perfectly against each other and we sunk into the couch. We almost went all the way but at the last moment I regained my senses and stopped him. I told him I wasn’t ready yet and he obeyed my wishes and stopped. A few minutes later he left and I was left sitting on the couch dishevelled and looking dazed. I made up my mind that I would get myself together and prepare a wonderful night for us the next time we met…. I wanted my first time to be absolutely special.

The next day I went excitedly to work I had a client to meet at one then I was going to leave early and get all the things I need ready for Jimi and I  Tejumade’ special night together. Throughout the day I was waiting for my client to quickly come and go so that I could go and set my plans in action. At 15 minutes after one my secretary called me and said that my clients -the betrothed couple- were her. I told her to send them in I plastered my business smile on my face . They walked in and I stood up with uncontrollable shock written all over my face ……the bride to be said ”hi my name is Cynthia Ogunsanya and this my fiancé Jimi Olubade”

DO or DIE

     I love it when you call me baby

                                                           It makes me oh so crazy

                                                           So adorable with your dimples. 

                                                           In my heart you are causing ripples 

 Dimeji was the ultimate bad boy. He had it all .....money,power ,popularity and extreme good looks. Girls flocked towards him in droves and he had a reputation for sleeping around with everything in skirt.

       Lolu on the other hand was a complete nerd. The whole package .....straight A's , always had her head stuck in a book, teachers pet and completely introverted and unnoticeable to the students that mattered in their school. But like every girl Lolu found herself liking Dimeji . She stared at him in the cafeteria, in the hallways, on school grounds dreaming about him and admiring his dimples and handsome face. She knew that he would've never pay attention to her because of the differences in their popularity status although she wasn't bad-looking. 

      So to her complete surprise one day Dimeji stopped in front of her locker after assembly and actually talked to her. Assuming that it was just a one time thing , she was surprised when day after day he stopped to talk to her. He sat with her for lunch, made her laugh in the library and even took her to the movies a few times. It was inevitable that she fell head over heels in life with him.

       A few weeks after they started talking, Dimeji asked Lolu to a party at his house. Lolu was skeptical about going at first but after a little persuasion she agreed to go

       On the day of the party she told her parents that she was just going to a friends house to study, being the good girl she was her parents believed her. On getting to Dimeji's house she was amazed to to see a lot of sweaty bodies grinding up against each. She managed to squeeze her way through the crowd to look for Dimeji. She eventually found him in the kitchen talking to some girls. immediately he spotted her he left the girls and came to meet her. He was happy that she came and he dragged her to the makeshift dancefloor and they proceeded to grind against themselves although Lolu was clumsy at first because she wasn't used to the style of 'dancing'.After a while , a slow song came on and Lolu found herself turned towards Dimeji to face him. Dimeji slowly lowered his head towards Lolu with a hungry look in his eyes and captured her lips with his. Lolu responded the best she could because she was very inexperienced. 

         Dimeji maneuvered them to an empty room while Lolu was to lost to notice. She became aware of what was happening when she found herself on the bed with Dimeji lying on top of her with his hands under her shirt. She tried to resist and stop him but her body betrayed her and that evening Dimeji made her a woman............

                                           

                 I found out that I wasn’t the only one

             You played me like a talking drum

You really broke my heart

 I hoped we will never part

The next school day somehow everyone found out what happened and Lolu became the talk of the school. The few friends she had before steered clear of her because she had a bad reputation now. But she didn’t really care because she had Dimeji and she thought they had shared something special. In the morning he didn’t come by her locker like he usually did but she put it aside thinking that maybe he was running late to school.

            Throughout the rest of the school day he didn’t approach her once and just completely ignored her. Lolu started feeling that maybe just maybe she had been played. This went out throughout the week but by Friday she had enough. Lolu cornered him during a free period and talked to him. She  regretted going to meet him because he left her in tears feeling worthless and used. Dimeji told her that there was nothing between them. She had just been just an ‘easy lay’. Lolu thought he loved her like she loved him , she had given him her virginity but it was all for nothing but apparently he doesn’t do love.

                                           

                                                            Darling I really hate you

                                                            But the fact is that I still love you

         I hate the way you made me feel

                                                            For weeks on end I fell ill

                                                     

Lolu really tried to hate him with passion but everytime she saw him her heart clenched with love. The sad fact is that she would have taken him back in a heartbeat if he had asked. She couldn’t sleep and was constantly thinking about him and what he did. Bags appeared under her eyes and since she couldn’t concentrate on her books her grades started dropping. She would see him in school with different girls…..his new preys and would start having terrible headaches. One morning she woke up and started vomiting accompanied by a fever. Her  parents called a doctor and she was terrified that she was pregnant but thankfully she found out that it was just malaria. To say that she was relieved is the understatement of the century. As much as she loved him, she didn’t want to have his baby.

                                                      I will make you see

                                                      That you are meant to be with me

                                                      If I can’t have your heart

                                                      Then in death we will never part

                                

When Lolu got back to school after my two weeks of bed rest she found out that there was a shocking news in school. Dimeji the certified player who had never had a girlfriend and doesn’t do love finally professed his love to a girl and is now dating her. To make matters worse the girl was in her class. she was livid, why couldn’t she have been the girl he fell in love with. Right there and then she made up my mind that she had to do something. If she can’t have him then neither will she, nothing or nobody will separate my Dimeji and her . She stalked him and found out that his parents have travelled and won’t be back till next week. That night she went to her dad’s study and took his one of his guns and two bullets and hid it in her room until she found need for it .

                                               

                                                   Either way you will be mine

                                                   It’s just a matter of time

                                                   Nothing will separate us anymore

                                                   Open up I’m outside your door

                                      

 On Saturday Lolu felt very excited ……..today is the day that she shall be reunited with her love. She told her parents that she wanted to quickly collect something from a friend and headed down to Dimeji’s house. She knocked on the gate and when he opened up he was surprised to see her. Dimeji asked her what she wanted and she just said that she wanted to quickly talk to him. He reluctantly allowed her in and when they stepped inside the house since Lolu was behind him she quickly took off her dress. When he turned around to face her, he was surprised to see her only in her bra and panties. Lolu sauntered up to him , grabbed his face and kissed him while rubbing her body over his . He tried to put up a resistance saying that he has a girlfriend now but eventually he gave in. They went to the same room that he took her to before but she took her bag with her and well you know what happened

               When it was all over and he was resting against the pillows Lolu stood up and reached into my bag and took out the pistol she had brought out and pointed it at him “ I am really sorry to do this to you Dimeji but I love you too much and this is the only way I can keep you with me” that was what she said to his scared and pleading face before she shot the gun straight into his forehead. As his body slumped over the pillows she started weeping. she didn’t want to do this but this was the only way. She took out her phone and dialled the police saying that two people had been killed and rattled of Dimeji’s address to them. She crawled over to where Dimeji was laying on the bed and positioned herself against him with his arms around her . She took the gun, pointed it at her head , closed her eyes and pulled the trigger.

GOLD ( just a lil bit of poetry)

You’ve got a broken nose

A scar on your left cheek

A scary physique

That makes people go weak

But your heart is made of gold

No one understands you

The way that I do

They all see the scary exterior

Not the beautiful soul

Baby your heart is made of gold

I know what you’ve been through

And it wasn’t a bed of roses

But you overcame all odds

Through the pain you grew strong

Your heart must be made of gold

You hold me tenderly

Gently kissing my forehead

You are not who they say you are

Because I’ve fallen in love with you

With that beautiful heart made of gold.

KAMARA'S DIARY

     Dear diary.

It has been over three years since I started dating Kelechi. We have known each other since we were kids and have been really close ever since. We started dating in my 200 level which was his 400 level after he professed his feelings for me and asked me to be his girlfriend which I gladly agreed to because I liked him too. I love Kelechi he is an absolutely perfect match for me. A tall light-skinned handsome man to complement my short dark-skinned self. He is smart, has ambition and a bright future ahead of him as a successful surgeon. My family likes him very much as he is very nice and polite to them and our families are good friends, they all approve of our match.

           I will finish my youth service training in port-harcout next month and I am 99 percent sure that Kelechi will propose marriage to me following my return back to Lagos. He already has a good job and his own flat and has been dropping hints here and there that he is ready to settle down with me. My family will surely expect me to gladly accept his marriage proposal and there really is nothing stopping me except one thing………..Kunle.

           I met Kunle in port-harcout at a village market where I went to buy some foodstuffs. He was taking pictures for a photoshoot some magazine was doing about the beauty of rural life or something like that. I stopped at the shop where I was buying fresh tomatoes to watch the photoshoot because I wanted to see what was happening. Somehow our eyes met and I felt sparks of electricity fly between us as cliché as that sounds. It was a foreign feeling I had never felt before not even with Kelechi. For that reason I got scared and quickly exited the market and went back to my lodgings although I felt his eyes staring at my retreating back.         

          The next week I got a huge shock when this guy showed up at the school where I was teaching. I was so surprised that he found me. Apparently as I was wearing my youth service uniform he knew I was a corper so he went to the youth service headquarters in port-harcourt and pestered them(more like bribed) them to give him the locations of where any short dark-skinned girl was teaching. And since then he has gone to all the schools to look for me until he finally found me. I found that incredibly sweet that he would go to all that trouble just to find me.

            We started off as friends because I told him I had a boyfriend. His business was in Calabar which wasn’t far from port-harcout .Every weekend or so he came down to visit me , bringing me gifts and chocolate , making me laugh and gradually worming his way into my heart. Eventually we realized that there was more between us and that was when our affair started. I felt bad that I am cheating on Kelechi but I believe that I really am in deep love with Kunle. He makes me feel things that I have never felt before and he really does love me back

          I am glaringly aware of the fact that my family will never in a million years approve of kunle because he is Yoruba and they always wanted me to marry an Igbo man. Also he is a photographer and although he has a thriving business my parents are conservative and don’t think that photography is a proper job. To top it off he is sporting a head full of dreadlocks and an earring in his left hair, a pure example of the ‘artsy’ type which my mother hates

          My heart longs for and wants to be with Kunle. But my head tells me to stay with Kelechi so as not to incur the wrath of my parents and not break Kelechi’s heart ……he doesn’t deserve it. My parents might disown me if I chose to break up with Kelechi and follow Kunle. Furthermore what if I follow Kunle and then later he dumps me like a broken toy although now he claims to love me.        

           Do I follow my heart or my head? I have to make my decision now because when I go back to Lagos next month I be trapped and will have no choice left than to marry Kelechi.

                  Oh God please help me make the right decision.

      

       to be continued............. 

           ( next part should be out soon)